pregnant

Being pregnant equals expecting something, and right now I find myself very pregnant. I am expecting Christmas!!!!! It is right around the corner and I cannot wait. It is my favorite time of the year and the anticipation that leads up to it is where I find most of the fun. The food, the presents, the giving, the family, the redemptive story of Jesus; it all gets me so excited!!! But then I hear that song, "Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas", and it makes me sad. To me it wraps things up, it brings an end to the time of year that I so look forward to. Even when I hear that song in November, I get sad. I get sad because my pregnancy will come to an abrupt end in one day. All of it will be over and there will be a whole year of mundane anticipation until we once again come full circle to the few months before.

I started thinking about this in further detail as I was driving to work. I remember my dad once saying at the beginning of a worship service that we needed to be pregnant with anticipation that God was going to show up and do something. So my mind started putting all of this stuff together. The Lord brought some scripture to mind, and to me this makes alot of sense in the season of life that I am in. God is at work all of the time around us. He pursues me, he pursues others, and what we really need to do is be in such tune with the Spirit that we can see where he is working and join him, always being pregnant or expecting him to show up and blow our socks off with the sheer greatness of who he is. But there is also this notion of waiting and anticipating. Just how I am waiting now for the 25th of December. I love how David talks about this in the 27th Psalm,

4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

This Psalm really stirs my affection for Jesus because I can see how much that David anticipated the Lord to do something. In verse four David tells the Lord that he longs to sit in his presence all the days of his life just gaze upon his beauty, even in the midst of turmoil and unrest, David wants to just sit and wait, dwell on the beauty of the Lord, and anticipate the greatness of who he is and how he will deliver him. I truly desire to have this kind of affection for Jesus. The kind that lets me sit and meditate on who he is all the while preparing myself and being pregnant with the expectation that he is going to do something marvelous in my life.

You see the great thing about Jesus is that unlike Christmas he will be back the next day and in the same grandeur and splendor. We do not build up with anticipation for what Jesus is going to do only to be disappointed when it is over because we can count on his faithfulness that he is going to show up in our lives again when we need it. I want to be in a constant state of pregnancy for what Jesus is going to do just like I am in a state of pregnancy for the Christmas season.
Let us run head long into the presence of Jesus, and like David be so mindful to know that he is going to move in our live but in the moment let us be content with sitting at his feet and basking in his glory, knowing that he is going to be faithful to come.

Come Lord Jesus

jj