What to do

Questions, fears, commitments, naysayers, complex situations, all these things are coming up and will most likely come up for the rest of life. So what do we do, what do we as followers of Christ do in the face of uncertainty? Do we just give up and retreat into a hole, filling our lives with meaningless junk that numbs the pain of the fear of going forward, or do we lash our violently and act as if we are the only ones with the right answer with no room for creativity or interpretation? I find myself so often in these two places when life happens. I want to know what Jesus would do and say in these situations and the great thing is that he gives me the answers and the solutions to these things, Him. How is that so profoundly simple but so complex that it is scary? My will is such a problem in my life that I find myself only thinking of me and what is in front of me and not thinking about what Jesus has in store for the situation. He is the activator of all things. When he says jump, we must say how high, when he says go, we must say how far, and when he says give it up, we must say okay. This is what he promises us

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Mathew 11)

So we rush to this and say yes, yes, yes!!! Take it all away from me; I do not want it any more!!! Oh, only if it were that simple. I can remember the times so vividly when I have participated in the ritual of surrendering only to realize that my will still plays such a strong part in this whole process. So what to do? What I have found is that to have a full and total identity in Jesus means that we have to die a horrible death to our will and so many times it is not as a whole but in many, many little pieces. I long for the day that I can truly come to Jesus and lay down my junk with no strings attached, but I still found myself bound to so many things that I have not confessed or forgiven. This walk with Jesus is in essence a bloody one if we are going to give up our life for His way and many times a shameful process if we are going to live for Him and not for ourselves. Oh I wish to die a thousand deaths to myself that I may live one second in His identity and authority. What to do is to be dead and abandoned, His will, not mine. I truly desire to be a slave to righteousness and holiness. Make me like You Jesus
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