the morning after

Sometimes I really do not know how to get my point across and it frustrates me. I argue with someone and I feel like it goes nowhere so I just don’t want to talk anymore. I do not know what to think about the way that I act. Do you ever wish that you could say what you mean and mean what you say? This is yet another way in which I need to turn to the likeness of Jesus. The guy could flat out communicate with people. I am afraid that I try to make things too complicated so that I can win or so that I will seem smart but in fact I am confused, scared, and hurt.

So I turn to the place where I know I can go for the answers and the Bible is pretty clear about my problem.

3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.” (Matthew 7:3-5)

I am always looking to the other person’s problem instead of inspecting my shortcomings. Don’t get me wrong there are going to be times when you are right and the other person needs to know that but this still leads us to do that in a humble way. Humble way?!! As I write those words I am perplexed myself. How do you point somebody’s shortcomings out in a humble way when we are always taught to be the best and leave the rest? Jesus tells us clearly here that it is all about introspection. What is going on in you dirty, skanky heart?

This is my problem. I no longer take deep breath and dive into the depths of my sin but instead I hastily rush in to fix everybody else’s sin to the point that it is detrimental to the way that I deal with things. If Jesus is going to permeate my life then I must realize he has to permeate through the bad as well as the good. I have to be willing to let him move me to remove the junk in my life and not just be a moral crusader who is always pointing out the wrong doings of others in attempts to make myself feel better. I am selfish and depraved and in need of Jesus.

Let’s all live like we are in need of Jesus

I found it is the best place to be

love and serve

jj